Thursday, February 2
so i'm not as grown up as i thought - Thursday, February 02, 2006
O+ what my super sonic ears pick up: cai chun jia - you ni duo hao+O msn nick: - kellY~* .
O+ msn personal msg:maybe i never belonged there in the first place. ` `
for memory's sake, i'll just jot down what happened yesterday.
my day at school could be described as pretty gd(cos everyone was still hyper after cny celebrations!) but my time at SP was even better. i got to have one of those heart to heart talks with preeti and matilda and the 3 of us just giggled away before and after we took e timeline challenge(btw,we didn't get in). it was like one of those moments when u know that having friends like them would ensure that ur life would be filled with giggles no matter what. that's my idea of a great day.
and i did coincedientally meet marcus on the way home too.
back to today.
whoever said we had to work hard for what we wanted was SO right. damn, today's PE lesson was a killer. 2 rounds around that durn canal. all i've learnt is that i'm heaty cos my ears started hurting like crap when i was done running.
our lil school field trip to the maritime blah blah blah was soo relaxing. i slept on the bus. i slept on e ferry while the old dude was pointing out which island was what. and i slept on the bus home. and EVERYONE thought we were going to somewhere interesting. oh how WRONG we were.
i think i need a serious let loose session. i keep beating myself up and stressing myself up over nth. i'm getting paranoid. maybe i should (for the first time ever!) , take brandon's advice and not waste my youth studying like an owl.
as what brandon said,
''if an brainless twit like (him) can get through wifout studyin a boie(that means bookworm) like u should have no problem even if u cut ur study time by half. ''
i did cool down since yesterday night. i guess now i'm in one of those reflecting moods. perhaps putting on a front like that is taking its toll on me. i'm not going to make any sudden decisions though. i'm just beginning to put more thought into where i am now, and where i belong.
i've proved myself wrong and i feel like i've let myself down. how was i affected by what others said? why did i let it get to me? why did i care? i overestimated myself. i'm not as strong-willed and ignorant of what others said as i intially thought i was.
at the end of the day, DAMALA and SAM are still the two people in the world that i don't question their loyalty to me. 3 IS ALWAYS A GOOD NUMBER.
luv alwaez.
kel